I am closing out this blog. There are many things that have happened this past year that no one would understand if I just pick up from here. When I start my new blog, I will link it here.
Much Love,
Jeani
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Happy Girl!
After so much going on in the past 8 months, I have started to get my life some what back on track. I am a happy girl!!
I would be a little bit happier if some of my medication worked better, but still I am a happy girl!
I haven't been happy in so long, I don't know what it's like to be this happy.
I would be a little bit happier if some of my medication worked better, but still I am a happy girl!
I haven't been happy in so long, I don't know what it's like to be this happy.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
New Beginnings
I haven't blogged in a while because I was trying to keep my emotions inside like I almost always do. I'm ok with sharing about my battle with infertility now, but not with other battles in my life. The infertility is a medical condition. My battles that I have been going through have effected me in just about every way. January 24, 2013, I became a divorced woman. It isn't something that I wanted to shout from the rooftops while I was going through all of it. From what I understand from others, it was a reasonably "nice" divorce. I am actually going through group therapy for what actually was the reason I wanted the separation. Up to this point, I think that going through my divorce is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I have lost my big sister to breast cancer, gone (and still going through) infertility, lost my closest best friend and a divorce is a death too. Divorce is the death of a marriage.
But now it's a little over two months since my divorce has been final. I've been doing so good! It's hard to talk publicly about why I got a divorce, but let's just say that it was a life or death decision. My life was getting sucked out of me. Anyway, I'm free as a bird now. I'm soaring on the clouds!! I'm learning so much about myself that I never knew. A few weeks ago, I went to do karaoke by myself! I would have NEVER done that before! And I took myself out to eat. I've always hated being by myself in public, but I can do it now. It's amazing! I have found out that I have the courage to do things I didn't know I could do. I'm not going to get too much into it. Some mystery is a good thing ;) I'm moving on!
But now it's a little over two months since my divorce has been final. I've been doing so good! It's hard to talk publicly about why I got a divorce, but let's just say that it was a life or death decision. My life was getting sucked out of me. Anyway, I'm free as a bird now. I'm soaring on the clouds!! I'm learning so much about myself that I never knew. A few weeks ago, I went to do karaoke by myself! I would have NEVER done that before! And I took myself out to eat. I've always hated being by myself in public, but I can do it now. It's amazing! I have found out that I have the courage to do things I didn't know I could do. I'm not going to get too much into it. Some mystery is a good thing ;) I'm moving on!
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Family, Roots, and Being Overwhelmed
Last week, I took a bittersweet road trip with my dad. My mom don't travel well and my husband had to work. My Uncle Mac had passed away and we traveled just a little ways (distance wise compared to everyone else) for his funeral. My dad hadn't seen Uncle Mac in I don't know how long. I have very vague memories of what he looked like when I was younger. Along with going for my uncle's funeral, I saw my Uncle Sammy for the first time since I was in elementary school. That was either in the very late 80's or very early 90's. Either way it's been a while. I also saw my Aunt Ginny. I hadn't seen her since I was 4. And MANY cousins!!!
My cousin, Crystal, and I finally discovered where we get our lack of height from. My other cousin, Martha, lives just over 2 hours away. My cousin, Mindy, and I are almost cousin twins! LOL!!! Then, I found out, even though they weren't there, there were cousins I didn't even know about!!
As far as the roots part, all of the brothers in my dad's family are truck drivers. My dad is not OTR anymore, but still is behind the wheel of a truck day in, day out. It's a different culture. I've tried to explain it to my husband before, but I just don't know how to explain it. I told him that when we moved to Big Spring, to get use to visitors! His step-grandpa is a truck driver, but I don't think my husband has seen it on the same level.
The overwhelmed....well, in 2 days, we got so much information that days after I'm still trying to process it all.
Funny story! I'm from the South. I've been in North Florida for 26 years. My dad had a Dr. Pepper and asked me if I wanted a drink. I told him, no, I can't have soda because of the medication I'm on. I thought for a millisecond and said "I've been around these people from up north too long. It's rubbing off on me! I just called a Dr. Pepper a SODA!!!!" My cousin, Crystal asked, what did we call it down here. At the same time Uncle Sammy's wife, Shelly, and I both answered "COKE"! Everything is a Coke down here!
Well, this one's for you Uncle Mac! Love you!!!!
My cousin, Crystal, and I finally discovered where we get our lack of height from. My other cousin, Martha, lives just over 2 hours away. My cousin, Mindy, and I are almost cousin twins! LOL!!! Then, I found out, even though they weren't there, there were cousins I didn't even know about!!
As far as the roots part, all of the brothers in my dad's family are truck drivers. My dad is not OTR anymore, but still is behind the wheel of a truck day in, day out. It's a different culture. I've tried to explain it to my husband before, but I just don't know how to explain it. I told him that when we moved to Big Spring, to get use to visitors! His step-grandpa is a truck driver, but I don't think my husband has seen it on the same level.
The overwhelmed....well, in 2 days, we got so much information that days after I'm still trying to process it all.
Funny story! I'm from the South. I've been in North Florida for 26 years. My dad had a Dr. Pepper and asked me if I wanted a drink. I told him, no, I can't have soda because of the medication I'm on. I thought for a millisecond and said "I've been around these people from up north too long. It's rubbing off on me! I just called a Dr. Pepper a SODA!!!!" My cousin, Crystal asked, what did we call it down here. At the same time Uncle Sammy's wife, Shelly, and I both answered "COKE"! Everything is a Coke down here!
Well, this one's for you Uncle Mac! Love you!!!!
Sunday, August 19, 2012
What A Rush!!!
It's been a few months since I last blogged. There's been so much going on that every time I start to write, my mind wanders.
In May, my best friend, Stacey, passed away. She's now in the arms of Jesus away from all her pain. Around that time, we got our referral and appointment to see the fertility specialist. This all happened in the same week. That same week, we had Camp Meeting at church. It was also my last full week at work. I'm now on stand-by status until something else opens up.
In June, I worked very few days, tried to get things done around the house and had my appointment with the specialist. He said that I don't have PCOS or adenomyosis. I do however still have endometriosis and was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder that stemmed from having HIB meningitis as a baby.
In July, I worked a few more days and lost a little bit of weight. Not much of an eventful month, PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
This month, I worked a few days, had my 31st birthday, and now, we are praying on whither or not we are moving to Big Spring, TX in the next year. There's not much work around here that pays well. The pay is A LOT better out there and the cost of living is less or about the same as here. We are praying that we both are able to transfer with our jobs. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I haven't had that big of a move since I was 5, when we moved here from Arlington, TX. I've got SO much prep work and packing to do!!!
Well, I guess in a nutshell, that's it. Now, it's time to try to get some sleep. Good night, everyone!
In May, my best friend, Stacey, passed away. She's now in the arms of Jesus away from all her pain. Around that time, we got our referral and appointment to see the fertility specialist. This all happened in the same week. That same week, we had Camp Meeting at church. It was also my last full week at work. I'm now on stand-by status until something else opens up.
In June, I worked very few days, tried to get things done around the house and had my appointment with the specialist. He said that I don't have PCOS or adenomyosis. I do however still have endometriosis and was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder that stemmed from having HIB meningitis as a baby.
In July, I worked a few more days and lost a little bit of weight. Not much of an eventful month, PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
This month, I worked a few days, had my 31st birthday, and now, we are praying on whither or not we are moving to Big Spring, TX in the next year. There's not much work around here that pays well. The pay is A LOT better out there and the cost of living is less or about the same as here. We are praying that we both are able to transfer with our jobs. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I haven't had that big of a move since I was 5, when we moved here from Arlington, TX. I've got SO much prep work and packing to do!!!
Well, I guess in a nutshell, that's it. Now, it's time to try to get some sleep. Good night, everyone!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Long time, No post :)
A lot has been going on in my little world.
Back in November, a job fell in my lap. Yep! I was delivering Avon books and was asked if I was interested in a part time job. At first, it was just supposed to be 11 hours a week. That lasted one week. Some days I got my 11 hours by the end of the shift and had to watch my hours at the end of the week to make sure I didn't get overtime. For a while, I was working 6 and 7 days a week. Now, I'm down to 4. I'm not complaining. I do miss the hours, but I missed having some free time too. I went from just working my Avon business to working a part time-ish job AND Avon. :)
Since then, I've also been able to go to the doctor. I have got my migraines under control for the most part. The first neurologist I saw put me on a high dosage of Topamax. After I had a break through migraine, I wasn't able to drive because it threw me all off. I know it sounds strange, but one day I was driving and it seemed like the car suddenly was a big as a room and the steering wheel was smaller than a keyboard. I switched doctors! The new doctor sent me for a LOVELY MRI (note sarcasm) and gave me a clear bill of health, brain wise anyway.
I've also have going back for more treatment for my endometriosis and adenomyosis. Over the years I have tried so many things to treat these issues. I've tried herbal remedies, compounded hormones, fertility drugs, birth control pills/patch, and none of them worked. So, after all this aggravation of dealing with these "female problems" for 15 years. I have now decided to try Danazol. It's the pill form of Lupron from what I understand. It will now put a "freeze" on my body and somewhat put me in menopause. Yay for hot flashes!!!
This past month I have had to deal with some new emotions. March 18th marked the 4 year anniversary of my oldest sister, Terri, dying from metastatic breast cancer. Also, during that week, a person who has the same kind of job my husband does was killed. They have very dangerous jobs. I have faced my own mortality and I, myself, am not afraid of death. I am saved. I've never had the reality of how close of becoming a widow I am every time my husband goes to work.
Well, I guess that's enough for one night :)
Back in November, a job fell in my lap. Yep! I was delivering Avon books and was asked if I was interested in a part time job. At first, it was just supposed to be 11 hours a week. That lasted one week. Some days I got my 11 hours by the end of the shift and had to watch my hours at the end of the week to make sure I didn't get overtime. For a while, I was working 6 and 7 days a week. Now, I'm down to 4. I'm not complaining. I do miss the hours, but I missed having some free time too. I went from just working my Avon business to working a part time-ish job AND Avon. :)
Since then, I've also been able to go to the doctor. I have got my migraines under control for the most part. The first neurologist I saw put me on a high dosage of Topamax. After I had a break through migraine, I wasn't able to drive because it threw me all off. I know it sounds strange, but one day I was driving and it seemed like the car suddenly was a big as a room and the steering wheel was smaller than a keyboard. I switched doctors! The new doctor sent me for a LOVELY MRI (note sarcasm) and gave me a clear bill of health, brain wise anyway.
I've also have going back for more treatment for my endometriosis and adenomyosis. Over the years I have tried so many things to treat these issues. I've tried herbal remedies, compounded hormones, fertility drugs, birth control pills/patch, and none of them worked. So, after all this aggravation of dealing with these "female problems" for 15 years. I have now decided to try Danazol. It's the pill form of Lupron from what I understand. It will now put a "freeze" on my body and somewhat put me in menopause. Yay for hot flashes!!!
This past month I have had to deal with some new emotions. March 18th marked the 4 year anniversary of my oldest sister, Terri, dying from metastatic breast cancer. Also, during that week, a person who has the same kind of job my husband does was killed. They have very dangerous jobs. I have faced my own mortality and I, myself, am not afraid of death. I am saved. I've never had the reality of how close of becoming a widow I am every time my husband goes to work.
Well, I guess that's enough for one night :)
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Please pass this on!
I got two things going on that I want to share with everyone. Please pass it on to ANYONE you think might be interested in either.
The first one is: ALL Avon home parties I have for the month of October, I'm donating a portion of the sales to Making Strides Against Breast Cancer. This year I'm walking in memory of my sister Terri. Please help me in donating to find a cure for Breast Cancer.
The second one is: I am trying to help get Care Packages made for our soldiers over seas. In doing this, the more organizations that want the items for Care Packages, the less the cost is. I will be covering all the sales tax and all items purchased will be at my cost. As of right now, I have priced the deodorant and lip balm. Both, as far as I know, are unscented. The deodorant is a liquid roll on, so it won't melt in the high temperatures.
If you are not in the immediate area, I might have to charge shipping. Please let me know if you are interested.
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