New Beginnings

I haven't blogged in a while because I was trying to keep my emotions inside like I almost always do.  I'm ok with sharing about my battle with infertility now, but not with other battles in my life.  The infertility is a medical condition.  My battles that I have been going through have effected me in just about every way.  January 24, 2013, I became a divorced woman.  It isn't something that I wanted to shout from the rooftops while I was going through all of it.  From what I understand from others, it was a reasonably "nice" divorce.  I am actually going through group therapy for what actually was the reason I wanted the separation.  Up to this point, I think that going through my divorce is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  I have lost my big sister to breast cancer, gone (and still going through) infertility, lost my closest best friend and a divorce is a death too.  Divorce is the death of a marriage. 

But now it's a little over two months since my divorce has been final.  I've been doing so good!  It's hard to talk publicly about why I got a divorce, but let's just say that it was a life or death decision.  My life was getting sucked out of me.  Anyway, I'm free as a bird now.  I'm soaring on the clouds!!  I'm learning so much about myself that I never knew.  A few weeks ago, I went to do karaoke by myself!  I would have NEVER done that before!  And I took myself out to eat.  I've always hated being by myself in public, but I can do it now.  It's amazing!  I have found out that I have the courage to do things I didn't know I could do.  I'm not going to get too much into it.  Some mystery is a good thing ;)  I'm moving on!